new chapter

… last month…

X: abg.. mlm ni ade usrah atau jumpe ikhwah ke? Kalau x, balik awal sket ye malam ni.. ade bende nk ckp..

Y: xde usrah, xde jumpe ikhwah. Tp ade keje sket kat ofis kene siapkan. Nanti abg sampai Gombak.

… lewat tgh malam..

Y: kenapa diam je? Kate ade bende nak share.. abg mandi n solat dulu la..

… dah selesai segala bagai.. slot rintihan hati pun bermula

X: kenapa diorang buat mcm ni.. awin sungguh2 kerja.. awin x bukan kaki kipas orang.. awin buat kerja awin.. selama 11 bulan, habis sia2 mcm tu je.. knape mesti sekarang.. awin btul2 suke dan sayangkan apa yg awin buat skrg.. kalau fikir gaji sikit, dah lama awin resign n cari kerja lain, tapi awin bertahan lagi, sayangkan budak2 tu.. abg.. kenapa mesti sekarang?  [dan saya menanges sungguh2 malam kejadian, terdiam suami saya sekejap.. agaknya x sangka dia, yg saya menanges semahu2nya malam tu…selama 7 bulan kahwin, mungkin itu pertama kali dia melihat saya menanges sepenuh hati, meluahkan segala isi hati.. dan mungkin juga baru malam tu dia tahu isterinya sungguh2 dan sangat suke dunia mengajar, bukan dunia eksekutif  seperti sebelum ni.. lalu dia biarkan saya luahkan segala isi hati saya malam tu.. habes basah2 bantal sebab terpaksa menanges cover dgn bantal, kalau x, mahu terjaga adek2 n ibu yg lena tidur tengah2 malam tu..]

… teresak2 juga, tapi suami tenang.. dia diam.. dan dibiarkan saya menanges, meluahkan semahu yg mungkin…

Y: awin, kadang2, bende yg awin suke, x semestinya baik untuk awin.. dan yakin lah, ini yang terbaik Allah bagi untuk awin.. yakinlah.. tempat tu yg awin sayang sekarang ni, mungkin belum yg terbaik lagi buat masa ni.. rezeki untuk kite tetap ada.. cume jangan putus asa, jangan bersangka bukan2 dengan taqdir.. bersabar sekejap.. abg yakin awin akan dapat tempat yg jauh lagi baik dr apa yang ada sekarang. Jangan kecik hati dengan org2 tu.. allah maha adil.. abg tau awin suke mengajar, cume mungkin bukan situ tempat yg sesuai untuk awin..walau mcm mane sayangnye awin dengan budak2 tu.. percayalah, allah maha adil.. allah akan gantikan sesuatu untuk awin dengan rezeki yg x disangka2.. kalau awin terus menanges, tu tande awin x redha dgn allah. Org lain diuji jauh lagi teruk awin. Sekurang2nye awin masih ade suami untuk dengar masalah dan buat awin ketawa walaupun abg suke buat lawak tapahape.. org lain, suami pun xde lagi.. awin ade akhawat untuk jumpe2, org lain siap allah tapis lagi untuk x merasa nikmat ukhuwwah sesame akhawat.. ade tu nak dapat nikmat islam pun belum tentu lagi. Kita masih beruntung awin.. sabar.. allah buat semua ni ade sebabnya.. bukan saja2 dia nak uji..

… 1 month later…

X: abg! Awin dpt offer microteaching tmpt yg awin minta tahun lepas.. abg sungguh2 bagi x kalau awin pegi interview khamis ni?

Y: pegi la sayang.. abg bagi.. blh kite jadi org Gombak lama sket.. haa, dah tu rumah kita kat bukit rimau sape nak duduk? Barang2 sume dah siap masuk dah ni..

X: aa… ni offer microteaching je baru.. blum confirm lagi.. abg bagi btul2 x ni?? [hati berbunga2..]

Y: bagi.. offer die jauh lagi baik.. mcm ni abg resign keje engineer, masuk mengajar same dengan awin laa.. gaji tinggi sket dr abg skrg, 5’ dr rumah.. xde kene tol plak tu.. hari ni jugak la abg resign engineer!

… dan seperti biasa bile die mule merapu dengan lawak2 die… heilaa suami ku.. perut asek vibrate je dgn lawak tapahape tiap2 hari.. tension baby dlm perut ni ummi die asek ketawa je..

Ps: kak aishah, alhamdulillah pass! Insha allah lepas ni ade formal interview dgn GM n org2 management.. doakan awin ye, jkkk kak ^^ sayang kak aishah!

Week30!!!

i’m 30weeks pregnant! pheww… this is real!

b4 getting to know that i was pregnant for last 7 months: abg had a very bad fever.. nak nak plak tu isu H1N1.. huh, risau. 2 minggu die demam panas+loya2 tekak.. trus mc 5 hari.. 2x check kat klinik, 2nd time tu, doc kate “shazwin, buat urine test”.. haa.. mase tu cam blur2, tapi buat je la.. dan dan pas tu “tahniah. puan mengandung 4 minggu”. hoho.. elok2 a few days lepas tu, trus baik demam abg! n saya mule loya+muntah2+dan segala bagai..

1st 3 months: i had a great, super great weight lost! mmm.. tgk nasi,x lalu, bile makan, muntah balik.  muke pucat, salu demam.. end of 1st trimester was during the final week of ramadhan. mase tu baru hilang segala morning sickness.. perangai moody2, kesian abg.. tp abg layan je.. n kate “tu laa nikmat mengandung.. kalau x morning sickness, x rase nikmat mengandung”.. berat turun 4kg! =( mase ni x blh makan ayam + nasi putih + seafood.. manjang makan ikan + mee + spegeti + mihun + roti.. muak..

2nd trimester: i really enjoyed the moment! bye bye to morning sickness.. selera makan sudah kembali normal! yay!! sgt happy, rasa mcm nak melompat tinggi2 bile stp kali jumpe gynae n timbang berat, nampak jarum penimbang bergerak ke kanan.. mule2 tu naik 0.5kg, tapi dah gembira sgt2!! lepas tu blan seterusnye, naik 1kg.. wah!! lagi gembira! skali lagi check.. naik 2kg!! waaaaahhhh!! senyum lebaaaa je.. hihihi.. mase 2nd trimester, lil scientist lasak mengexplore sorang2 dalam perut ummi die.. subuh lebih awal dr kebiasaan mase ni sbb die yg kejutkan.. hehe.. menendang.. [berlari!.. abg kate]

n last 2 weeks dh masuk 3rd trimester.. lenguh2.. saket tulang[mcm nenek!].. jalan pun plahan je.. x leh lari2, aktif2.. nak nek tangga shopping complex bile kuar dgn abg, die kene pegang tangan untuk bagi support.. tqvm abg.. sabar sungguh layan isteri abg ni.. semoga syurga buat suami yg baik terhadap isteri =) ameen..

dan skrg ni.. sgt suke melayan [melantak/menyental ..seperti kata abg] choc! 1 bar choc tu saya blh habis kan skejap je ok! although choc is 1 of the not-so-good food to take regularly during pregnancy.. tapi sape blh tahan, esp untuk yg hantu choc.. ohhh… sgt tidak boleh elak, walaupun cube untuk disiplin.. lagi2 kalao drive sorg2, bile singgah petronas, masuk je kedai mesra tu..hah! choc! IRRESISTIBLE. ok ok.x caye?? mlm td ibu bli 1 kotak ice cream choc heaven.. saya makan ..sedar x sedar, dah tinggal separuh kotak! abg kate “cukup2 laa.. org blakang nak jugak”.. pagi tadi bukak peti ais, tgk same je kuantiti ice cream tu.. xpe, rilek.. tunggu thari.. bile thari, same je kuantiti, x berkurang pun.. haha.. maka saya pun makan.. dan tinggal laa suku je.. sampai petang ni, same je xde org usik pun.. haha..jap lagi tamat laa riwayat sekotak ais krim choc heaven walls.. haha.. bestnye xde org suke choc kat umah nii.. heaven! [oh, kec along!! die hantu choc.. siap rajen potong pisang buat banana split lagi.. ala, along kan kat qatar skrg ni.. who cares pun kan kalo ice cream ade 100kotak kat rumah, kalau bukan saya! haha..]

tu blum masuk lagi bab choc cake.. uhh.. raye baru ni, org makan daging korban.. saya melayan choc cake! bessttt..nak lagi.. homemade muddy choc cake is the best ever! skali je rajen buat, 2x malas dah =P yg best tu, saya sorg je yg makan, yg lain x makan sbb x suke choc! yay!! pelik nye org x suke choc..

Well, there is a light at the end of the tunnel though. At about 4 more weeks, my baby’s head will move down into my pelvis as he gets into the right position for birth, insha allah! Do pray for us!!

trase nak makan double choc chip ice cream.. sedapnyee…

just smsed him “hari ni awin genap 30minggu pregnant. lagi 10 minggu je abg jadi ayah”

hehe

ok la..cukup2 laa buang mase kat blog.. pening kpale ngadap laptop lame2..

KASBI 2009!

Science Muffin

there were 16 of em who got 80++ for Science Final exam paper 09.. as promised.. just some small gifts for those kids ^^ blaja rajen2 lagi k.. nanti tc nak tau result pmr/jhsa 2011..

ps: sebarang tempahan muffin yg sedap dan design yg comel2 blh la rujuk kpd kak farah: http://funmuffin.blogspot.com

skali order, mesti nk lg.. hehe.. betul! saya dah jadi regular customer die.. x tgk dh tmpt lain =P mak saya lagi la, dah jadi die hard fan blueberry muffin ni.. ‘huuuu cedaaapppp’ [like izz always say]

updated

i need to go shopping for baby’s stuffs.. n find the baby sitter asap.

baby cot.. sterilizer.. uhh.. mahal btol! xde ke yg murah2 sket..

alhamdulillah, yg len2 bnyk ade dah, along x mau bawak gi qatar, n die lambak sume kat kami.. so baju2 baby boy ade 2 kotak besa + 2 car seats + 2 strollers + 2 baby sling bags(yg macam mak kangaroo bawak anak die tu..haha.. abg volunteer to wear it! haha.. abg akan jadi ayah yg pakai beg baby kat depan prot die.. ok, the baby will get extra soft cushion then! hihi)..

skrg ni, tgh cari baby cot n sterilizer..berpinar mata cari kat inet.. sume nye beratusan ringgit.. mahal btol barang2 baby skrg ni.. ade sape2 nk bagi present as belated hadiah kawen ke? haha *jk*

my status now: walking slowly.. slower than the sweet old couple.. as sometimes i could feel the back pain =(

done!

alhamdulillah.

been there.

done that.

faced the challenges of adni.

tq for giving me the best time by knowing all the great people of adni, who are:

1. k. mas [chem tc.. she is really good in chemistry! well, actually, she is supposed to be a doctor pun kan, but then she turned up as a chem tc! once a tc, always a tc! yeah!]
2. k. budi [history tc.. n school counsellor.. kak budi sgt rox! kak budi best!!]
3. k. suzy [geog tc.. u can make people laugh with ur natural jokes!haha]
4. k. nadia [bio tc.. kak nadia, maaf x dpt membantu untuk prgm dec ni..]
5. k. suhaida [comp tc..hehehe.. team menyakat!]
6. k. raihan [bm as 2nd language tc..assisstant of kak suhaida dlm menyakat! hehehe]
7. k. aniza [add maths tc.. hehe.. ni lg sorg yg suke menyakat]
8. k. kam [account tc.. she is always with her smile.. "nur"]
9. k. nila [discipline tc.. u r cool kak nila! n u r a v gd listener! i'm proud of knowing u =)]
10. k. saba [living skills tc.. she's great in cooking! seriously!]
11. k. rahimah [islamic studies n eng tc.. hoho.. lidah pekat mat saleh ni.. n she's so kind.. jkkk kak reyma for everything~!]
12. k. umay [sc tc.. my partner during speech day.. sgt tabah dgn mcm2 dugaan speech day.. phew~~]
13. n the list goes on..

t h a n k  y o u  a l l!!

updates

my husband is getting better now. alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. he doesnt allow me to give him a call at all as he said “nanti setiap sejam awin akan kol abg. tunggu je abg yg kol awin k.dont worry about me. abg kuat insha allah”

n suara die dah x selemah mcm awal2 dia warded. n he’s recovering v fast. alhamdulillah =) tq Allah! memang kehidupan seorang isteri adalah suaminya!

but then abg sgt nak balik kl. sepanjang die kat h.kluang, saya akan check email die, n die mintak saya bacakan setiap email yg masuk! oh my!! n he would reply to me:

“banyak keje x setel. abg kat ward pun ofis kol tanye data management! dah confuse dah, ni keje engineer ke, keje org management ni. lepas tu kedai kite dah nak siap, abg nak masukkan barang2 lagi. rumah kite kat bukit rimau, abg nak setelkan secepat mungkin habiskan masuk segala barang yg x sampai2 lagi, yg kite dah order lame berbulan. banyak abg kene siapkan. wiken ni rumah ibu kat gombak nak renovate, abg nak tlg kemas2 barang kat bilik bawah tu masuk dlm kotak”

oh, saya sgt la stress bile dgr die dpt mc  tapi dia nak gune untuk menyiapkan segala bagai kerje die tu bile balik kl! abg!! cube duk diam2 kat rumah sehari je, blh x.. mm. rase nak erase je segala bagai kerje dunia dlm kepala dia tu. haihh.. umo br 26, pk dh mcm2. umo 40 nanti kang botak licin la camnih.. ye, die seorang yg sgt rajen, jujur n amanah bile bekerja. keje sungguh2, balik lewat mlm, TAPI selalu lupe jaga kesihatan!! mujur stp ahad pagi ade riadah dgn ikhwah. haihh.. merisaukan! bile saya bising2, cool je die jawab “abg nak cari rezeki halal untuk isteri n anak abg.. awin doakan je abg sihat selalu” haihhh…  ok, bile die ckp mcm tu, full stop! mm.. bile dah saket mcm nak pengsan x blh bangun, baru die duk rumah! ok laa.. ok..ok! x nak ckp pape dah la.

wut’s next? sunday, we’re gonna have a big event, final event for 2009! adni’s speech day aka hari anugerah, lebih kurang mcm tu la maksud prgm tu dlm bm. mm. n i’m incharged of sec students’ performance: choral speaking in mandarin+english! uhh. actually, there are 4 tcs incharged for this performance [ours will be the last n closing performance of the day! wut?!].. me, tc umay[the leader], tc salma n u.ayub. but then only me n tc umay who have to spend all the time with the kids.. to train em to hafal all the mandarin words! haiiyya.. ok. thanx to u. ayub for the chinese costumes. thanx to tc salme for spending ur great time with the kids, translating all the english words to mandarin, n gave ‘em the spirit to speak in mandarin. we know that u r v busy right now marking the thai students’ xm paper. n today was the rehearsal for the big event. hmm. extremely exausted. n at 5pm+, got sms from tc umay, n she said tomorrow will be the 2nd rehearsal b4 the real day! oh no!! mm. dugaan, Allah nak uji kesabaran semua orang, tadi mase kat dewan serbaguna  masjid wilayah, tgh2 rehearsal, skali blackout 1 masjid! haha. tc aniza dgn lawaknye spt biase “ramalan menunjukkan bil api x dibayar! kita bersabar ye semua.” hehe. ok, maken lame team adni maken best. ye la, x knal maka x cinta, ye tak. ok, only the tcs yg cool ok! saya x brape knal org2 management. haha. mm, telling u the truth, mane2 tmpt keje pun, org x suke org2 hr. haha. knapakah?? anda jawab sendiri. =P

mm. 2day is my last day being a science tc of adni. m gonna miss the place, the faces, the table of mine. haha. adni, yg penuh dgn segala bagai ragam manusia! full of challenges. seriously. full stop.

yesterday, we [1c] really had a great time during the class party time. ok, for this time i told em “please. no more pizzas!! we will bring our own foods from home.” ok, it turned out pretty awesome when the boys especially, were excited about the foods! luqman’s mom who is very famous among the students of her super delicious lasagna, volunteered to cook KUZI! wow. arif’s mom cooked curry. n i brought [ordered!hehe] 3kg roti jala and steamed cheezy sausage! hehe. last party we had satay for our main dishes. but this time, roti jala. laku! n laris ok! licin, alhamdulillah! faiz, he brought nuggets. izz and the gals, the brought the drinks. but this time no Sparkling like last 3 parties, bcoz amira the sparkling gal arrived home at 2 in the morning from malacca trip!! ya allah. kesian. so x sempat la kan nak bli. n balance duit kelas tu, i went to jj au2 with tc hairena, n bought big apples doughnuts n ice cream walls for all the kids.

tqvm 1c!

spkk is just around the corner. mm.

walimah lagi

nov~dec 09[musim berkawen] 7 wedding cards: 1 can attend without any clashes n 6 cannot attend. 4 wedding invitation thru fb: 1 done, another 1 will attend, the other 2 cannot attend. 3 out of 11! hallamak.. time cuti2 skolah ni.. yg lagi x dpt dtg tu, kalo hanta hadiah kawen thru fb je blh x? huhu

ape2 pun, tahniah..

 

mode:x mood

mm..

best je bile tgk gamba time sihat2 nih.. berebut eskem laa.. bersauna dlm pasir laa.. dan segala bagai la lagi waktu sihat2 dulu.. cepat2 sembuh k abg.. =( balik kl nanti awin buat fresh squeezed orange juice yg abg suke sgt tu k!

warded

18:56- awin, abg warded. abg x larat nak drive dah. trus pegi hosp. awin x yah dtg cni. kesian baby kite nanti.

23:31- lagi 2 malam abg balik kl. doakan abg. jgn nanges2, dah besa! jgn risau2, ikhwah ada dtg td bwak makanan+100 plus+choc! abg duk ward vip, abg request. hehe.jgn risau, abg akan mintak mc dr bos. setahun mc untuk awin punye pasal!

heh. ye la tu. dah saket2 pun nak melawak lagi.

00:17- nape awin x tido lagi. x yah la nanges2 lagi. abg hidup lagi la.. 2 mlm je lagi. dah pegi tido k. esok abg kol awin lagi.

=( trase nak terbang pegi kluang mlm ni je.. tp abg sgt larang.. baiklah.. huuu.. bantal dah basah2 =( nk kol hp kene barred plak. uh. sekse x dgr suara dia sblm tdo mlm ni. [lembik btol! mcm mane nk lahirkan mujahid nih]. mm. btul la. kalo abg saket je, mesti saya nangeh dulu. haih. lembik mcm sayo terlebih rebus!

die yg selalunye sgt la hyper dan x blh duk diam, tibe2 suara lemah je kat tepon lewat ptg td.. =( =( =( =( lagi 2 malam baru balik kl..

abg.. abg.. mase demam xnak duk rumah, nk jugak pegi keje, pegi outstation, pegi site. skali kat kluang plak kene warded! x kire! abg kene amek mc smpy wiken ni jugak! x mo gi keje dah. berehat kat umah jap!